"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on. "
quote of the day
Thursday, December 17, 2009
wise choice
Sunday, December 06, 2009
last weekend, it was a coincidence to meet ira love.
we did plan to meet up but somewhere cancel it last minute.
but! we happened to bump into each other in town. den we ended the nite by spending time together at esplanade; watching a cultural gig. totally unplan but it was fun!
i find it hard making choices; worst at this point of time. i do not know which or how to make a choice. i doubt my decision and that is why i am still making decisions even at this moment.
i had a tough week. nothing seems right at the office or to be exact i no longer feel a sense of belonging there. i hate the feeling. so much. the more i drag my existence, the more i feel bad about it.
haiz..when i am dying to feel happy. to feel glad with life. all this worries come pouring down on me. if only i have a good cash to fall back on, i would have left far long ago. it is because i have just enough that i hold on to my current job.
mum,dad,love,gfs has been giving me advices so that i make wise decision. not to make decision on impulse. but it is not about to go or not to go. it is about when should i go? i love the people around me. i do not want to disappoint them. i do not want to make the wrong decision that might affect them in one way or another. i do not want to trouble dad.
anxiously waiting for the call. in a day or 2. i pray hard.
i find it hard making choices; worst at this point of time. i do not know which or how to make a choice. i doubt my decision and that is why i am still making decisions even at this moment.
i had a tough week. nothing seems right at the office or to be exact i no longer feel a sense of belonging there. i hate the feeling. so much. the more i drag my existence, the more i feel bad about it.
haiz..when i am dying to feel happy. to feel glad with life. all this worries come pouring down on me. if only i have a good cash to fall back on, i would have left far long ago. it is because i have just enough that i hold on to my current job.
mum,dad,love,gfs has been giving me advices so that i make wise decision. not to make decision on impulse. but it is not about to go or not to go. it is about when should i go? i love the people around me. i do not want to disappoint them. i do not want to make the wrong decision that might affect them in one way or another. i do not want to trouble dad.
anxiously waiting for the call. in a day or 2. i pray hard.
call
Friday, December 04, 2009
T.G.I.F
i so dont feel like working today.
lucky tomorrow off day.
*anxiously waiting for that call
random idea
Monday, November 30, 2009
DF
rue á luxe
the name struck me.suddenly.
dream
Friday, November 27, 2009
I HAVE BIG DREAMS.
at times i thought; would it happen?
but then again, i wont know till i try.
ive been having random thoughts, ideas & planning.
only that when will be the right time?
"there is no failure except in no longer trying"
stressing
Thursday, November 26, 2009
i have not been updating.
there are just too many things happening around me.
i do not feel good about it.
the thought of running far away; have yet.
it erks me alot.
i need a break. a long desired break.
i pray for help. please.
movie-filled weekend
Monday, November 16, 2009
late updates~~
my previous weekends was awesome. though it was a simple one.
but being around with love ones are really fan-ta-bulous!
i had my lovely Saturday with love of course.
and beautiful Sunday with mum & dad.
Saturday
my previous weekends was awesome. though it was a simple one.
but being around with love ones are really fan-ta-bulous!
i had my lovely Saturday with love of course.
and beautiful Sunday with mum & dad.
Saturday
we aint got much cash yet..
the desire to meet up on Saturdays is always a must.
we head out almost close to 7pm.
we head straight to Marina; my choice that is.
so sick of town, town & town. its been awhile since ive been to Marina.
movies was our plan for the day.
the ticket booth at the cinema was rather empty. reason?
then we saw..
"2012, seats left available are separated seats ONLY"
that simply means gf one end, bf another. something like dat i suppose.
we are already in the queue.
i told bf we have to make a choice like real fast.
he was clueless over what show to watch.
i thought of 'Jennifer's Body' starring Megan Fox.
love says bad idea. "no killing movies pls"
*giggles*
last choice. "Paranormal activity"
ok.good + bad choice = I REALLY FREAK OUT
go watch it to feel the thrill.
i wont share much.heh.
it was an early day the day after; Sunday.
tickets booked online.
dad was dying to catch a movie after 10 long years.
the last movie we watch together was "Jurassic Park".
i was about 10 years old.
hee. so long long ago.....
he was pretty excited. so, yea, 10:20AM was the show.
we got hook to the screen.
dad was enjoying the sound effect.
mum was concentrating on the plot.
me? the movie is seems misleading.
random thought.
afterwhich, we had lunch to feel our growling tummy.
follow by a rountine groceries shopping.
i love mum & dad. i love my man.
nice weekend.
and er...btw..
SCHOOL KICK-OFF THIS WEEK!!
we head out almost close to 7pm.
we head straight to Marina; my choice that is.
so sick of town, town & town. its been awhile since ive been to Marina.
movies was our plan for the day.
the ticket booth at the cinema was rather empty. reason?
then we saw..
"2012, seats left available are separated seats ONLY"
that simply means gf one end, bf another. something like dat i suppose.
we are already in the queue.
i told bf we have to make a choice like real fast.
he was clueless over what show to watch.
i thought of 'Jennifer's Body' starring Megan Fox.
love says bad idea. "no killing movies pls"
*giggles*
last choice. "Paranormal activity"
ok.good + bad choice = I REALLY FREAK OUT
go watch it to feel the thrill.
i wont share much.heh.
it was an early day the day after; Sunday.
tickets booked online.
dad was dying to catch a movie after 10 long years.
the last movie we watch together was "Jurassic Park".
i was about 10 years old.
hee. so long long ago.....
he was pretty excited. so, yea, 10:20AM was the show.
we got hook to the screen.
dad was enjoying the sound effect.
mum was concentrating on the plot.
me? the movie is seems misleading.
random thought.
afterwhich, we had lunch to feel our growling tummy.
follow by a rountine groceries shopping.
i love mum & dad. i love my man.
nice weekend.
and er...btw..
SCHOOL KICK-OFF THIS WEEK!!
losing inches
Friday, November 13, 2009
since losing a kg or two. im even keen to lose more.
ive been stepping on the weighing scale week aft week.
my beloved uncle has been advising me.
stick to strict veggie only. lots & lots of plain water he says.
most important, jog more; more round dat is.
*chuckles*
ps: i need to lose weight fast
my beloved uncle has been advising me.
stick to strict veggie only. lots & lots of plain water he says.
most important, jog more; more round dat is.
*chuckles*
ps: i need to lose weight fast
fights
Monday, November 02, 2009
it lasted about half an hour.
it was nothing but loud voices.
you denying, i assuming.
we both lose out.
with tears to sleep.
& i realise, i miss you.
it was nothing but loud voices.
you denying, i assuming.
we both lose out.
with tears to sleep.
& i realise, i miss you.
walk a mile
Friday, October 30, 2009
hey all. i almost didnt realise it was Friday today. it has been a really fast week. pay cheque's out. that marks another start to a new month. it was never different, i am always oh-so-tight in cash.
remember the interview i post about. i had it on thursday morning. i was all anxious. the office was pleasant. i waited for almost to an hour. yet my interview lasted barely 15mins?
remember the interview i post about. i had it on thursday morning. i was all anxious. the office was pleasant. i waited for almost to an hour. yet my interview lasted barely 15mins?
interviewers: "Hi dewi. first up..tell us more about yourself?"
me: "oh sure. ok..im a cheerful and outspoken person. i love engaging into conservations even with people whom i just met. i classified myself as a determine individual too who believes in making little steps to achieve big goals...blah..blah..blah.."
(i introduce myself for about 5mins.they listen attentively & once im done..)
interviewers:"oh, that is a very good introduction. short, straight and with great confidence". but dewi, but just 1 question, why would such a confident person like you be interested for such a position?"
me: "i have been working in the admin line for years. i would like to grow my career by going into and learning the different aspects of business. what attracted me most with regards to the position was the list of jobscope. it is very interesting. i find it challenging."
interviewers: "i see..dewi, we think you are just OVER qualified. (what??) you present yourself so well that we are speechless. we appreciate your presence here. we suggest you to apply for a more serious and higher level role that fits your capability and certification."
me: "oh ok. i understand. thanks for the opportunity. nice to meet you".
(as soon as i step out of the board room. i chuckled. was i dreamin?)
NOT.
i didnt feel bad about it; totally not. it actually helps me to grade myself. after so long, this interview really made me realise how ive grown into. im happy.
my tummy growl in hunger. i thot of LJS. its been so long since i had breakfast there. i was from Newton so it was kind of near to town. the best LJS location is Dhoby Ghaut. so i made my way there.
i admit i am actually on diet. i cut down my food intake to almost half the amount i used to garb. hees. most important, i cut down intake of rice. i eat lots of fruits. i take the chance to walk most of the time. even as far from one mrt station to another. i am so used to it, i dont feel the pain. i walk up the stairs to my office every single day,without fail. my office is located at the 3rd storey but the flight of stairs is so steep that by the time you reach the 3rd storey, your heart pounds as if you have just climb a 5 storey flight of a normal HDB block. pheww! i use to stay on a 6th floor of my previous home. i get scared at times to take the lifts with strangers, so walking up the stairs is an alternative way i could still get home.
guess what i did? i alight at Somerset and i walk all the way to Dhoby ghaut MRT station. i pass by Centrepoint, then i pass the building opp 'The Central'..i pass by Intercontinental Hotel..then the 'Istana'..follow by 'Plaza Singapura'..i then cross over another small road. and finally, LJS! mind you, i was in HEELS.
*giggles*
i really sweat. but it was worth the walk. i feel good. furthermore, if you really know me, you will realise that i walk really fast. my normal speed is very, VERY fast. try me? hees.
i sat & had my breakfast. flipping through the papers to past my time. it is really a good feeling to be out in the early morning when everyone else seems to be in the office. just a nice 'holiday' kinda feeling. you just feel differenf for a moment. JUST a moment. heh.
soon, it was time to report to work. i make my way to Lavender. know what? time to walk again.
i am so-lovin-it!
a week ago i was 65kg. today, 64kg. 1kg? glad! =))
i do not want to be model skinny neither obese. body like Kate Winslet & Scarlet Johansson are my ideal figures.
6 months down the road. we'll see..
