Personal Glory Last Forever

I never once did imagine that we would turned out this way.
Ever since knowing you, i've been the girl i've always wanted to be.
Having u by my side; though at times u are far at sight, i feel secure.
I tried to win your heart.

Days passed, we learn alot about each other.
I feel like it's as if, we are writing a book, and in it, fill with chapters of our memorable frendship.
Each day, your messages never fail to fill my inbox.
My heart excite each time my hp beep and in my inbox, bears your name.
I could not explain in words how i feel appreciated by you.

Time passes, my love for you grow.
But i kept telling myself, never to put my hopes high up there.
Coz i can never asure myself that you would feel the same way.

Sensing that i fall for you, you kept showering me with Qns.
Why i choose you?
Why you, not others? Etc.
I tell you what's in my heart, none others but the truth.
You still doubt me, but it's ok. Time will eventually says all.
I understand why you did so.

The other day, we met.
You let me hold you like you are already mine.
How i felt really glad.
Having to put my fingers between yours is like the sweetest dream that turns into reality.
As i get to lay by your shoulder, be by your side, hug you...
Even the coldest breeze from the night air makes me feel warm and comfortable.

Recently, i did a silly mistake.
You got really mad at me, and u started telling me that all this while, though i say 'i love you', its never meant to be real.
I was sad to hear you tell me that.
No dear, its for real. I swear.
I wont mind you getting mad at me.
But please don't doubt my feelings towards you.
Scold me for all you want but only 1 thing i plead..
Please forgive me??

Now..
You no longer reply my messages.
Neither do you call me animore.
I didnt expect you to leave me just like that.
I realise my mistake. I promise it will never happened again.
Please return to me Dear.

I miss you.
I miss..
...the way you made me laugh with your jokes.
...the way you to tease me.
...your fresh messages in my inbox.
...hearing your voice.
...the late nite supper we had together.
...you showing me the way to school upon having my bike.
...you sitting down with me, n clarifying your doubts with me.
...you giving advices to me.
...you giving me the courage and support to live this 'bumpy' life of mine.
...you being the sweetest guy ive long to be with.
...you sharing your past with me.
...you making your way to my place to meet me each time i say i miss you and i wana c u.
...you saying gd nite as i was about to end my day.
...everything of you.

I cant believe all this is happening..Right now.
Someone, i call my 'pillar of strength'..
Was gone in just a blink of an eye.
I have myself to be blame.
I wonder if i could go on without him.
God how i miss him..
I'm in tears right now..
I know..
He wont return at all, im certain.
I have to end this..

"Dear, i know you are mad at me. I know why you choose to leave me. But i gotta say that having you all this while, was really a memorable one. Been in 2yrs of singlehood, but after knowing you, i thought i could start anew.. But things eventually turn out the other way. Unexpected. I really want you back here by my side. Having you in my mind and knowing you no longer love me,I cant seem to do my daily routine like i alwaes did. I feel like quiting, giving up..But you once told me, whatever happens, never to neglect my studies and all. I beg you to return..I run out of words how to tell you that i need you here with me..Im sorry for whatever happens..Return please my Dear..I plead.. "

To my gurlfrens, (you know who you are)
"I think ive did the right thing by not telling you ppl who i was with. Now, that he have left, im here to seek apology for not being true to u guys of his existence in my life.My r/s with guys never once did run smooth so its not that i'm selfish but its jus dat, as long as im still uncertain, i dare not reveal bout whoever im close with.Now, he's gone from my life, i wont felt dat ashame as how i would IF i were to told u ppl. I just got myself to blame. I just have myself to moan. Im sori once again."

-Its THE END of me n HIM-