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some things are not meant to be told
Posted 20 Nov 2007 // 11:35 pm
ey, hello all.what a nice weather out there. wet, cold & windy. ((= ill spent some time to jot my thoughts down here aite. i dont feel quite right lately. get tired too easily. i end up having to sleep early. yea i noe early rest is good. but its so not me. *giggles* ive always been sleeping late. sometimes very late. but i can no longer do that now. i just cant hold my eyes open for long. (i wonder) ever heard of me saying i wanna quit my job?? know what..ive still not tender my resignation. i do not know what exactly that is stopping me. i just cant figure it out. ive been keeping my doubts & worries from Dad.i fear his gonna go..u know! hmm. im just not sure. i want a new job but school MIGHT start soon for me. (if application is successful) i want to stay but im already f*ck up with everything around me at work. it's just so *$^@&? ok, i better not go on. STOP RIGHT THERE DEWI. duh!~ log in. ok..who should i chat with. (scan scan scan) grr. no one great online. boredom. ok nemind. ill just wait. surf the net in the meantime. check my email & OMG!! (shock) really? should i?? i cant believe this! will it work this time round? Dad: you should try baby. Me: aite. no harm trying anyway. ".... has just signed in" isha my favourite buddy is online! we spend time catching up. it was so fun talking to her. about you noe wat babey.. "ssshh..secret btwn us hokay?" *winks* shes just so great talking to. mind you, we're got to be friends through the net. i randomly pick her among thousands to make friend with; that one fine day. and now, we're buddy. i was at work the other day. listening to the radio while doing my work. i heard the dj says "if you're sincere abt working, you wont feel bad while working" but hey! im NOT at all sincere. so does that makes the reason why i feel SO so bad. i really think so. you know..when you have this hatred towards something..or even someone.. you don't feel like going there or meeting that person. AT ALL. but u have to. it sucks. really. the feeling just sometimes get hold of me you see. at times i feel so moody & at times i feel all gear up. like depression is taking control of me. mad? maybe. hah! jokin. my 'big sis' at work is the only one who cheers me up & makes me feel like "ok, its not so bad afterall, you have me, & im going through the same shit" get over it Dewi. its gonna be over. soon. till then gfs. hugs. bf, do you really love me? if not, im ok. i am. actually. er, NO. isha, party soon babe? *winks* |
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