Being home on a Friday night is relaxing. Eventhough i should not be home at this hour on this day (i am suppose to be in class), i think i do made the right decision to skip class for today due to unforeseen reasons. I text my classmate, Juliana to inform her that i will not attend class and i will really appreciate if she can take down notes for me. :)

I realise that i bring about many problems upon myself. I have big dreams, too big that people who get to know about my dream would always give me a negative remark. It seem almost impossible, to them atleast. Still, i believe that nothing is ever impossible. I work hard since my teens and i do learn alot about the working life. Things can really be tough and the future is own most great responsibility.

I am financially weak lately due to my own negligence. I have only myself to blame. I am 2 months past 22 years old, i really need to do something about my finance control. Things are getting a little way out of control. I worry so much each day. Yes, i have ample savings but i do not like to eat up my savings just because my salary runs dry. Lucky for me, now is the fasting, i get to save up alot on meals and eat at home during breakFAST.

I realise as i grow older, i prefer being home with my family, especially with mum. I meet my man on Saturday but that depends if i am not tired after work and school. On other days, after work, i still prefer heading home straight. I do miss my girlfriends and i do wish to meet up with them. Working and being an undergrad is not easy. You have to juggle between work and school, family, friends and most importantly time out for yourself. At times i do feel like i am drifting apart from friends, i envy their life that i free of thoughts and always filled with enjoyment. My life is more of the usual routine, the hectic rush hour and need to relax and be alone at home.

My man knows that i prefer being alone. Not that i hate having someone with me wherever i go but i just want to be on my own. Few months back, i mention to my man that i will one day try and travel alone. I am a lady but that do not forbid me from seeing the world and being different. I love Singapore, i am born and i grow up here. I really am thankful for the fact that i am born in such a peace and well developed country. I need not worry about food, shelter or any disaster. Things are close or i should say, almost perfect; i can never ask for more.

In about 3 years time, i will turn 25 years old. This is the year that i aim to start venturing and earning additional $$ by maybe buying property or officially kick-off a business. I need to do something different to ensure a better future. My man may not be able to earn as much as i do but i still love him for who he is. Of course i do encourage him to upgrade himself slowly. It does not matter how slow you go,as long as you never stop moving. I look up to him for not being lazy and continuing his effort to strive.

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